Growing up, a sense of worthlessness has always plagued me.
I was often compared to my sister who was an all-rounder in academics and sports.
Progressively, as a child, I began believing that good performance could gain me love and acceptance from others.
I knew that if I wanted to make it and have friends in life, I needed to perform well.
In secondary school, I wanted to ‘rebuild’ my reputation. So, I tried my best to excel in various things and even joined the student council. At that time, I made a very good friend and we would often hang out together.
However, one day he stopped hanging out with me. His change in attitude left me distraught and abandoned.